Another writing confession

Some people say that writing poetry is an easy thing for them to do, and that's great! However, it's not so easy for me. Sometimes, a thought has to linger for weeks--even months, before I am able to share it. It has to develop into all that I really feel within me...nothing can be left out. As a result of this, I cannot write every day. I cannot just write what comes to mind, because I will not be satisfied with just that. I have to take what comes to mind, and allow it to journey through the emotions of my heart, so that by the time it gets to the deepest parts of my soul...it will have matured into something I can truly feel. I always try to share what I truly feel. I have done writing exercises that have given me ideas, but I even have to go back and allow those thoughts to linger or else I simply won't share them because they feel unfamiliar and incomplete. Sometimes it's hard because there is a certain way that I want a certain emotion to be illustrated with my words. It's not always easy for me to paint a picture with words. I can't always feel the words right away, and when that happens--the poem stops, and it sits until I feel the words that correctly illustrate my emotions. Also, sometimes one vision...one image remains in my mind and I use that one image in several different poems. I try to do what I believe most writers and poets try to do, and that's simply share how I feel. I realize that others can write every day, and I believe that is wonderful. Sometimes I wish that I could do the same, but most of the time I am satisfied with knowing that the thought I need to come will come in its own time, in its own way.